Today I can feel the presence of the evil wolf preying about on my weakened body. I can feel it as it grabs at my head. Tightening its jaws around my very sanity. feel t as it is attempting to suck the very breath from my fragile respiratory system. My kidneys are weakened by the force of the blow as it attempt to flare. I can hear the angry growl as it gnashes its teeth into my immune system removing the strength I have from within. Today I feel as though I can not contnue to fght this beast. Its clutches seem to overpower me. I am weary, and tired. I feel the pain shooting through my jaws, and my collarbone. the evidence of something wrong showing as sharp pangs overtake my back. Urine is replaced by blood. Fear replaces strength.
Then I am quetly reminded of my shepherd. He guards me day and night. He watches me. He sees my pain. He hears me cry. and He reminds me of the blood He shed for me. the stripes by which I am healed.
I am encouraged in knowing that no matter how I feel, this too shall pass and I will overcome this. For I have a shepherd who is more powerful than any cannus Lupus wolf.
I hold on to my faith.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
this is not for the unbelievers!
when we have a society airing the unacceptable acts of so called role models, and forcing ppl to agree with ways and lifestyles they don't agree with, yet shutting down christians who are fighting and standing for what they believe in, we have lost our principles of freedom. We are forced to accept homosexuality in schools because we are discriminating if we do not. Yet Christians are discriminated against when they are hushed and silenced. We are not living by the thought of All men are created equal. It should be allowed to pray, learn biblical history, and view the ten commandments in school.
If you want people to be okay with what other people do, than you be okay with it first.
Are you afraid of reality?
i'm just saying that it's not fair to shut us down. Let us speak. We need a new movement! one that will most likely end in martyrdom, but will live forever with our Lord.
One that is non violent, but loving as Christ himself loved us. one that says, Hey Christ died for us, I will speak for Him.
leadership today is too afraid of persecution and finacial fines to really speak out on what they claim to have so much faith in.
Remember, God, through Christ Himself, said if we are ashamed of Him on earth, He will deny us in Heaven. If we can not speak out for him in our home, why should we expect him to allow us into HIS.
get it toghether all you Bishops, Apostles, Prophets, Preachers, Evangelists, Ministers, etc.
You speak the word of God. Live it. You want followers, follow Christ as the disciples did, be the Modern day Pauls, and Johns and etc.
Can never win someone to Christ when you yourself don't really believe in the power He gave you.
I believe in the power.
If you want people to be okay with what other people do, than you be okay with it first.
Are you afraid of reality?
i'm just saying that it's not fair to shut us down. Let us speak. We need a new movement! one that will most likely end in martyrdom, but will live forever with our Lord.
One that is non violent, but loving as Christ himself loved us. one that says, Hey Christ died for us, I will speak for Him.
leadership today is too afraid of persecution and finacial fines to really speak out on what they claim to have so much faith in.
Remember, God, through Christ Himself, said if we are ashamed of Him on earth, He will deny us in Heaven. If we can not speak out for him in our home, why should we expect him to allow us into HIS.
get it toghether all you Bishops, Apostles, Prophets, Preachers, Evangelists, Ministers, etc.
You speak the word of God. Live it. You want followers, follow Christ as the disciples did, be the Modern day Pauls, and Johns and etc.
Can never win someone to Christ when you yourself don't really believe in the power He gave you.
I believe in the power.
okay. we got Lindsay Lohan back in court and Charlie Sheen making a scene. Wow what does this say about the people we call role models.
Lindsay, now she has an debatable case. She walks in to a jewelry store, chats with the clerk. Leaves with a smile with the clerk walking her out. Then she is accused of stealing a necklace during that visit. Sounds like a promotion plea to me. they allegedly sell the tape for 35 grand, and plan to auction off the item in question.
Sounds to me like the jewelry store just wants to make a buck off the visit. I mean if it were someone else who has not been in the public eye recently, would they be in court now? If it were someone like you or me stealing the chain, would we have gotten a friendly escort to the door? no. they are capitalizing on the fame and attention of this already trouble girl. Not fair.
As for charlie Sheen. this guy clearly has issues. He spends a weekend on a drugged binge, spends 30 seconds in rehab, has his kids removed from him, (which, in my opinion was evil on the mothers behalf, if she didn't want them there, she should not have let them go in the first place instead of making a public spectacle and putting the kids in the fire. now they have a video to see when they get older, "hey look, mommy had the police take us from daddy's house and the world saw it, what great parents we have!")
anyway, this guy is in need of some serious help. Spiritual help. Yes, I said it. Charlie is angry with the network when he placed himself in his own vomit by returning to the drugs in the first place. Charlie you had it made bro. 2 million and episode. I would be grateful just to be able to write a segment of an episode for a mere 50 grand, and here you are snorting away your opportunity for greatness. you are not winning, you are losing. you are making a spectacle of yourself. Don't get me wrong, I love ya, but you have some serious issues. You need some serious help. Come on Charlie, get it together, you are acting like something outta Hot Shots. Making yourself look like the 1/2 of two and a half men. (and yes, I am one of your multimillion followers)
Lindsay, now she has an debatable case. She walks in to a jewelry store, chats with the clerk. Leaves with a smile with the clerk walking her out. Then she is accused of stealing a necklace during that visit. Sounds like a promotion plea to me. they allegedly sell the tape for 35 grand, and plan to auction off the item in question.
Sounds to me like the jewelry store just wants to make a buck off the visit. I mean if it were someone else who has not been in the public eye recently, would they be in court now? If it were someone like you or me stealing the chain, would we have gotten a friendly escort to the door? no. they are capitalizing on the fame and attention of this already trouble girl. Not fair.
As for charlie Sheen. this guy clearly has issues. He spends a weekend on a drugged binge, spends 30 seconds in rehab, has his kids removed from him, (which, in my opinion was evil on the mothers behalf, if she didn't want them there, she should not have let them go in the first place instead of making a public spectacle and putting the kids in the fire. now they have a video to see when they get older, "hey look, mommy had the police take us from daddy's house and the world saw it, what great parents we have!")
anyway, this guy is in need of some serious help. Spiritual help. Yes, I said it. Charlie is angry with the network when he placed himself in his own vomit by returning to the drugs in the first place. Charlie you had it made bro. 2 million and episode. I would be grateful just to be able to write a segment of an episode for a mere 50 grand, and here you are snorting away your opportunity for greatness. you are not winning, you are losing. you are making a spectacle of yourself. Don't get me wrong, I love ya, but you have some serious issues. You need some serious help. Come on Charlie, get it together, you are acting like something outta Hot Shots. Making yourself look like the 1/2 of two and a half men. (and yes, I am one of your multimillion followers)
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Six weeks to a new me!
The next six weeks will focus on my daily attempt to lose weight and renew myself.
Today I weigh in at 208 lbs and my pant size is 16.
I have been told that I do not look like 208lbs and a size 16. My hips alone are 44 so thats probably where the problem is. I am 5ft 6 in tall. I am 68 lbs from my ideal weight of 140. I choose 140 because anything lower than that and I look like a sucked up individual striving for the approval of society. I would like to be no smaller than a 10.
today I walked 2 miles with my daughter. I drank 72 ounces of water and said no to the sodas.
I had a 3 inch ham and salami on white with onions, mustard, lettuce, and american cheese. I cheated a little with 2 cinnamon rolls. Tonight I will have more water, maybe some green tea and ceviche.
before bed I'll start off with 20 crunches and some cardio.
i'll let you know tomorrow how I feel, it's gonna hurt, but hey, I'm getting too outta shape and no pain no gain right.
Today I weigh in at 208 lbs and my pant size is 16.
I have been told that I do not look like 208lbs and a size 16. My hips alone are 44 so thats probably where the problem is. I am 5ft 6 in tall. I am 68 lbs from my ideal weight of 140. I choose 140 because anything lower than that and I look like a sucked up individual striving for the approval of society. I would like to be no smaller than a 10.
today I walked 2 miles with my daughter. I drank 72 ounces of water and said no to the sodas.
I had a 3 inch ham and salami on white with onions, mustard, lettuce, and american cheese. I cheated a little with 2 cinnamon rolls. Tonight I will have more water, maybe some green tea and ceviche.
before bed I'll start off with 20 crunches and some cardio.
i'll let you know tomorrow how I feel, it's gonna hurt, but hey, I'm getting too outta shape and no pain no gain right.
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